Mawage..mawage is what bwings us togevew today

Well my last day of my internship was today and it was a half day! Woo hoo! I am sad I just love those people and that place but it was a very positive end to a very positive experience and I'm glad it happened! I am excited to have some time off right when the weather is perfect for riding! Especially since I just got a new saddle! So what does any of this have to do with marriage you say? Well I took a half day today so I can travel with mi madre to the eastern side of the state to be in a wedding tomorrow! Yay! This is the first wedding I've been in that hasn't been for a sibling - I am so excited! I love weddings! I love love! This is my good friend Noel's wedding - she was my first good friend I made when we moved to Idaho and I love her dearly even though we fought like sisters in our less mature days we have always been there for each other in the really hard times in each other's lives. I was there for her when her parents got divorced and she faces the horror of become another number in the statistics of a broken home. My heart broke for her and her family but they have all done well with it and I am so happy she will have a wonderful marriage to a sweet guy who really cares about her! She was there for me when I was homesick and miserable my freshman year of college when I had a terrible roommate experience and she was the only one I could find in town that would remind me of home and the people who love me most. She is wonderful and I am so happy for her and her new husband. I am so proud of her for setting a good example for her younger sisters by getting married to a good man in the temple. She has been such a good example to me in so many ways and I can't wait to see her live happily ever after!

Today was...

A bit of a melancholy day. Now knowing it was my second to last day (and my last full day) at my internship
I took greater appreciation in many things there. The following may be a little too dramatic for the actual situation but sometimes my thoughts sound more like poetry than normal thoughts so I'm sharing the more artsy side of my mind when I write this. I was laughing just the other day thinking how I could recite Dr. B's Africa hunting story just as well as he could after hearing it so many times then today I realized I would probably never hear that story again and wished I could hear him tell it one more time while the aroma of chewing tobacco that always followed him was still within smelling distance. I wished I could rush to help Dr. P with whatever he needed only because he asks so nicely. I wanted to savor every Spanglish conversation and every awkward but sweet kiss on the cheek from my Latino friends who always made me feel welcomed and appreciated. I wanted to record Dr. W's sweet southern drawl comforting a horse and calling her sweetheart so I could hear it again on a rainy day (I also wanted a picture of his beautiful, single face but it crossed my mind that that may be out of line). I will actually miss folding those dang blue towels and packing surgery packs as tight as I can without ripping the drapes. And my supervisor - oh how I will miss her stories of chaos and humor and her confidence in my abilities, her patience in my learning. I will miss seeing these amazingly talented and beautiful creatures that God has put on earth as His way of reminding us that He loves us enough to put beautiful creatures such as these in our care. I love horses and I have loved having the opportunity to learn more about them from wonderful doctors and staff. Even though my heart is saddened by my end of work at this wonderful hospital, I know something even more amazing must be in my future!

Below is a picture from last year's internship but at the same clinic. It's gross, I know, but I love this picture - if you know what I'm holding kudos to you (don't judge me for taking a picture). :)

New Blog! *revision*

So initially I had a blog my first semester of college to keep my family up-to-date. Great. I talk to them like 7 times a day so why would they have to read what I'm doing when I just tell them? Conclusion: they don't and I didn't keep up with it. Next, I made an awesome new recipe and decided to make a blog to share it with the world via Pinterest. Awesome now I have a crafty blog and no time for crafts. Finally I decided this is just going to be a blog for me to just write (and occasionally post some crafty stuff when I have the time to be crafty again). I enjoy writing and I have a lot of thoughts and feelings I just need to get out because I'm terrible about keeping up with my journal and I feel like I'm at a crazy time in my life when writing thoughts and feelings down will only benefit me. Let's see how this goes - I give it at least a few more posts than the others before it fizzles out but let's be hopeful folks! Long live the blog!

Life Happens

I need to give up on making plans because clearly Heavenly Father has something in mind for me better than whatever the heck I've got going on. The plan was go to college, find my soul mate, live happily ever after. Plan got revised to graduate college, get offered a job at my internship site, make enough money to manage car payments, focus on finding that guy from plan A and then live happily ever after. Now I really don't know what to do except have faith that my Heavenly Father does indeed have a plan for me that I agreed to and that I will learn from and love. It is really hard. I'm not even a full 24 hours into it yet. Being an unemployed college graduate (technically this is what I have been for a month now but I was still expecting plan 2 to work out and get a job offer after my internship so i never considered myself as such and today I found out that won't happen) is not cool. In fact, it pretty much wreaks. Ughhhh I'm so stressed tonight. I wasn't planning on having to job search at all and now here I am looking at having nothing to do but that after Friday. I guess the only thing left to say is just "Jesus take the wheel" cause quite frankly I don't have a car to drive.

*Sidenote: I am really glad that the above happened when, where and how it did - I am a happy BYU-I college graduate. Also, I love my family.*