Scrubs make me Happy!

Today I had a working interview! It felt good to put the scrubs back on but mostly being around the small animals made me A) miss working with the horses B) overwhelmed cause I feel like I remember nothing about dogs and cats. I think the interview went well and even though the clinic is farther away than I would like and it's only part time I am happy to get something over nothing and the people there were super nice. Here is the other thing: lately (as in the last oh two days or so) I have had this feeling that big changes are going to happen soon but I don't know what and I don't know what soon means. I feel that I have matured a lot in the last few years but recently I just feel even more like I am ready for a new stage in my life but I have felt this way before and I don't want to get disappointed if no big changes happen in the near future but I am doing what I can to be open to what Heavenly Father wants me to do and where He wants me to go so if those changes are in my near future I will be ready for them and know when they come. Anyway I don't know what is in my future or when the next phase of my life will begin but I hope I will be ready for my life to evolve when it does. I like where I am right now but I will welcome whatever it is that is in store for my future. Sorry for the very vague, very personal rant but I just needed to "talk" it out so I can sort all the thoughts and feelings running around in my head! Enjoy the rest of your week!

Crazy Days!

We had a great time visiting the cousins in Utah and the new babies are just so precious! The traveling was long and a bit boring but I enjoy the car rides with my mom - we always have something to talk about. Life has been crazy since we got home from Utah! Monday we rode horses which was great after we shuffled saddles around and made ourselves comfortable then we had a family BBQ in the evening which was a lot of fun and the horses were good sports to give pony rides to the kids (some of which I am ashamed to say had never ridden our mounts until last night) and everyone had a great time! We stayed and helped clean up the kitchen and the kids so Rob and Julie could take a ride back to our house to see the newly decorated bathroom. I stayed with the (supposed to be) sleeping children and rocked a cranky baby to sleep but she ended up catching the stomach bug that's been migrating through our family and threw up all over. I am not good with throw up. My reflexes are thankfully very good and I managed to stay clean and keep any of the mess off the couch and ottoman. Luckily the naughty children who were supposed to be sleeping came running upstairs to my aid for which I was extremely grateful! And they made sure I would pass my gratitude on to their mother who would no doubt be happy to know they were still awake for a worthwhile reason. Today was another crazy day - riding, babysitting the original sickies in the family (who are thankfully feeling better - splendid and fantastic in fact, in Max's own words) then I filled out an application to a janitorial service in Boise that is looking for about 50 people to help clean the temple until the open house after all the remodeling that has gone on. I hope I get it - what a cool opportunity to get to see places in the temple I've never seen before! It is also nice that it is a temporary position so I can look for a more permanent job at a vet office but not be completely broke in the meantime. After that we took my brother's oldest two girls to watch a cutting horse competition at the Idaho Center Horse Park which was fun! Unfortunately we only saw a short part before they broke for dinner then we went grocery shopping, had dinner, I went to Tyson's soccer practice then we rode again! It was a fun fun day - being unemployed isn't too bad :) yet.

Today was...

A bit of a melancholy day. Now knowing it was my second to last day (and my last full day) at my internship
I took greater appreciation in many things there. The following may be a little too dramatic for the actual situation but sometimes my thoughts sound more like poetry than normal thoughts so I'm sharing the more artsy side of my mind when I write this. I was laughing just the other day thinking how I could recite Dr. B's Africa hunting story just as well as he could after hearing it so many times then today I realized I would probably never hear that story again and wished I could hear him tell it one more time while the aroma of chewing tobacco that always followed him was still within smelling distance. I wished I could rush to help Dr. P with whatever he needed only because he asks so nicely. I wanted to savor every Spanglish conversation and every awkward but sweet kiss on the cheek from my Latino friends who always made me feel welcomed and appreciated. I wanted to record Dr. W's sweet southern drawl comforting a horse and calling her sweetheart so I could hear it again on a rainy day (I also wanted a picture of his beautiful, single face but it crossed my mind that that may be out of line). I will actually miss folding those dang blue towels and packing surgery packs as tight as I can without ripping the drapes. And my supervisor - oh how I will miss her stories of chaos and humor and her confidence in my abilities, her patience in my learning. I will miss seeing these amazingly talented and beautiful creatures that God has put on earth as His way of reminding us that He loves us enough to put beautiful creatures such as these in our care. I love horses and I have loved having the opportunity to learn more about them from wonderful doctors and staff. Even though my heart is saddened by my end of work at this wonderful hospital, I know something even more amazing must be in my future!

Below is a picture from last year's internship but at the same clinic. It's gross, I know, but I love this picture - if you know what I'm holding kudos to you (don't judge me for taking a picture). :)

Life Happens

I need to give up on making plans because clearly Heavenly Father has something in mind for me better than whatever the heck I've got going on. The plan was go to college, find my soul mate, live happily ever after. Plan got revised to graduate college, get offered a job at my internship site, make enough money to manage car payments, focus on finding that guy from plan A and then live happily ever after. Now I really don't know what to do except have faith that my Heavenly Father does indeed have a plan for me that I agreed to and that I will learn from and love. It is really hard. I'm not even a full 24 hours into it yet. Being an unemployed college graduate (technically this is what I have been for a month now but I was still expecting plan 2 to work out and get a job offer after my internship so i never considered myself as such and today I found out that won't happen) is not cool. In fact, it pretty much wreaks. Ughhhh I'm so stressed tonight. I wasn't planning on having to job search at all and now here I am looking at having nothing to do but that after Friday. I guess the only thing left to say is just "Jesus take the wheel" cause quite frankly I don't have a car to drive.

*Sidenote: I am really glad that the above happened when, where and how it did - I am a happy BYU-I college graduate. Also, I love my family.*